Love Don't Live Here Anymore

Love Don’t Live Here Anymore

That used to be my favorite song sitting in my car, driving with the window down, and repeating each word like it was written just for me. As Valentine’s Day is approaching and I realized that you’re gone.  Thinking about the cards, candy and flowers that I received each year.

Each year after you died unexpectedly I had to come to grips that I wouldn’t send you another card. I thought about the year I placed my order through ProFlower © for 3 dozen roses for my Mother.  I called her expecting to hear the excitement instead I heard disappointment because they were wilted. I placed another call for them to make it right and another 3 dozen arrived. She finally said send me the money and I will go to the grocery store because wherever you’re getting your roses they aren’t fresh.  Now I am disappointed and I place the third call this time I spoke with a supervisor and express my experience. They understood, showed empathy and this time this was the best three dozen roses my Mother ever received. In her small one bedroom apartment she was surrounded by all the roses. They were in the kitchen, bedroom, living room, and even the bathroom. I treasured that moment and tucked it into my memory.

I stopped sending my friends and family cards for Valentine’s Day for a moment and just started. I settled with not getting the recognition from my lover and started putting the wall up.  Love doesn’t live here anymore. It’s just a fantasy!

Until the ice wall that was protecting my heart was broken. The peace I was looking for landed at my door. I looked into the mirror and I saw the person looking back at me. I didn’t recognize the person I became. I was all about work, settling for treatment I didn’t deserve and realized that I wasn’t by myself. Speaking to both men and women who felt that they weren’t worthy and that it was too late. That love had missed their address and wasn’t going to knock on the door. I woke up and said it’s a new day!

So for those who are approaching this Valentine’s Day look at it as a day to

celebrate you! Love you!  Do something special for yourself.

1.  Buy your own flowers

2.  Take yourself to dinner

3.  Coordinate a dinner out with your friends and dress up

4.  Schedule that spa day

5.  Show someone else love

6.  Visit the elderly

7.  That special person you have a crush on don’t wait! Tell them.

8.  Love on the person who is most important! You!

I am wishing each of you a Happy Valentine’s Day because when all else fails, when they walk out the door, and you feel alone just remember someone loves you more. Just look up! Love lives inside of you

Blessings,

 Patricia A. Saunders

Blogger, Poet, Author

www.patriciaAsaunders.com

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